This is it, guys.
This is the Valley Ecstasy, returned. This is the deep and wide and real happiness. This is the obsession, the focus, the love, the joy.
Oh god. Every song I listen to - it’s like I’m hearing more than I did before. The music makes my skin tingle, and it’s so beautiful that I can’t bear it, and everything just seems so much more real, so much more.
And I can’t stop thinking about the story and I can’t focus on anything else, and I’m going to start on the next update as soon as I can (silly Josh Ritter concert tomorrow night) and…I remember this. I remember this.
If I’m not around as much and I don’t talk to you as much and I sometimes forget to answer messages or take a while to get to them - it’s not personal. It’s not personal at all. It’s Va…no. It’s Moonfall Focus. :)
Tonight on the way to dinner I told the spousal person that Howling just wasn’t working because I was bored with Lilith and I wanted to get to the part where I told Sarah and Seth’s story so bad, but I couldn’t face what I had to do to get there. So I just made Sarah and Seth’s story the main story, and look! Problem solved! :)
He laughed and said “I remember even with Valley you were bored with setting it up with Lilith and all you talked about was Seth, weeks and weeks before he even showed up in the story. Which confused me at the time, but now I have come to understand.”
I hope you guys understand too. *hugs*